Im so fucking frusterated. Like me and my boyfriend are “on a break” am i even still allowed to call hin ny bf if were on a break? God knows if hell even come back. I sure hope so. I cant lose him. Im in love with him. And he says hes in love with me too, but than why is he leaving me. Fuck. Im so scared i cant even eat.
Everyone have to fucking leave. No one person can stay in your life forever. I dont know why i even let him in. All they ever do is leave. Thats what people do. They leave. As soon as they make you happy, they leave. God im so fucking stupid thinking someone could actually eventually fall in love with me. I mean, who would do such a fucked up thing?
I kinda hope i wake up dead just so you know you should of said sorry. That you should have grown up. That it really was your fault.
Not a single one of my friends will ever understand how i feel. How it feels to hear “you hangout with the hot skinny girls, you need new friends.” Or being called fat everyday. Or knowing you wont look good for prom, and you know why? Because you really are fat. All of my friends are gorgeous, and skinny. And perfect. And im not. Im fat. My boyfriend even thinks so. He doesnt give a shit at all how i feel.
If i cry like this everyday ill be skinny because i cant eat when im upset
Keep making me feel like shit. I actually do enjoy it. I mean, according to you i dont have a heart anyways so keep em coming!!
My parents tried to get me to get out of my bed but honestly im just gonna stay in bed and cry all afternoon cause life sucks